Is this thing still on?

 Yes, it's that time of the decade again. A post on my personal blog!

Let's see, where were we? What do you want to know?

I'm still in France taking care of my 95-year-old grandmother, although she's now 97 so I guess I've been here two years now!

I'm still dabbling with a bit of an online business while I try to figure out what I really want to do in life. Write, obviously. Play games, obviously. Help others, obviously.

What isn't obvious is how to make money doing any of that. While I don't care about money, and I'm financially stable right now thanks to the old grandma keeping me fed while I'm keeping her company, but the long-ingrained idea that I should be out there hustling and bringing in the phat bucks still niggles at me.

To be fair, it's not the money. It's the being useful to others that I'm craving. I'm not looking for work, per se. I'm looking to be of service.

I'm still hell-bent on never working in an airconditioned office chained to a cubicle 8 hours a day. That life, for me, is over. It's clear now, two years away from it, that working like that is insanity. Unhealthy insanity.

I'm keeping my hobbies up: I get a gaming video out on YouTube once a day to keep my video editing skills up. I try to write something every day. It's true what they say: being creatively productive makes me much happier than just being productive. I spent twenty years working jobs that simply required no creativity. That was a mistake.

I'm fortunate to be in a position now to correct that mistake. 

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